In 2020, Carl Lentz was fired from Hillsong East Coast after he confessed to having an extra-marital affair.
He is speaking out about what happened and the healing journey that followed in a new FX docuseries.
"For the last three years, my entire focus has been fighting for my wife and my kids. My family has been my only priority," said Lentz in a statement on social media. "In order to do that, seeking sobriety and healing had to run parallel with those goals."
He said nothing else mattered, none of the noise, lies, none of the half-truths that were said. Nothing mattered.
"All I wanted was to prove to my wife and kids that I could show up for them like I had never done before," said Lentz in a statement on Facebook. "Although we have a long way to go, with a lot of work, a lot of honesty, and a lot of prayers, we have found ourselves in a beautiful, happy and deliberately honest place."
On May 5, Lentz and his wife Laura celebrated their 20th wedding anniversary. He says they were able to do that in the purest way.
He says, unfortunately, that came through a lot of humiliation, embarrassment and heartache. Part of the healing from the heartache led Carl and his wife to be a part of a documentary about Hillsong Church that he says they don't have any control over, any say and haven't seen yet.
"We'll see it when the world does. We are not interested in blame shifting or responsibility deflection. We focus on mistakes and the context for what transpired."
He goes on to say, "I can honestly tell you that when you get to a place of honesty and freedom in your life. When you've gone through hell, and you realize God is still with you...it is so freeing."
"It's the freedom I wish for all of the many people that I know that are called by God and wrestle with secrets and the feeling of not being worthy," said Lentz. "Trust me. It led me to some dark places."
Carl says even though he is at an amazing church now, he is no longer in minsitry. He says he will no longer be preaching or overseeing people.
"My role is to help give perspective and insight where I can," said Lentz. "I am not the first man to be in this situation, and I won't be the last, but I can promise you I'll be the guy standing with arms open wide for anyone who's been on this pat of addiction and destruction. I can say I understand it and my relations with Jesus in a way that I couldn't from the pulpit."
Lentz says he looks forward to a road of repentance and life change as life moves on.
"It truly makes me wonder if this is what all of this pain was about," said Carl. "From the lows of where I've been, to the grace and forgiveness that God granted me, I have something to share and so does Laura and my kids."
The FX docuseries debuts on May 19.